All
my life I have been invisible… one would think I’m used to it by now… I’m not.
Actually, it all began the day my cousin was born (but she is anther story)…
and ever since then I have become clearer and clearer… like glass. Or like I
don’t exist. I recently tried to ask our German foreign exchange student about
life back in Germany…
he completely ignored me. I FREAKING HATE BEING FREAKING IGNORED!!!!!! At times
I don’t mind… but most times I do. Like when my grandparents go to my cousin’s
soccer game (and they have seen almost all of her games) and don’t show up for
my play. Or my birthday gets overshadowed by my aunt and her two kids coming in
from Colorado.
I become invisible.
And!
Two friends I had from the private school I used to go to don’t talk to me
anymore even though I still see them everyday. A little “hey kayman, how are
you?” is not that difficult.
So…
I am invisible… I’m the invisible teenage girl! Look out Fantastic Four, you
have a new member! (Yes, I am a bit of a nerd)
And
when I’m not invisible… apparently I can only be seen by nerds and other geeks.
Two of such boys of this status have come out and told me they have a crush on
me. … Why can’t the cute ones like the nerdy girl? The two nerds aren’t bad……
they just… we’ll … they’re not my type. They are both nice guys and all… but to
date is to look for one’s significant other in which they will send the rest of
their lives with. I just can’t see myself marrying ether one of those nerds…
sorry fellas. At least they have now given up and me and have moved on. I see
the older one on a daily bases at school and quite frankly… sometimes, I swear
I’m his mother! Although, mother does know best.
The
only other guy that sees me is this really cute jock that was in acting classes
with me for two years. And he is a hunk… but I once had a crush on him, but I
don’t anymore. In fact, at this point in time… I don’t have a crush on a
non-anime character. But, he his making it hard not to think of him like that.
He tried to sit beside me on the bus and he said hi to me in the hall… I know
he has a girlfriend… I know he has a girlfriend… and besides… why would a hunk
like him every wonna go out with a geek like me. A geek who needs to hit the
gym more often so there’s less strain on her heart. My family has a history of
heart disease. And I don’t want to die of a heart attack!!!! Maybe I’ll hit the
pool when it opens.
Just
saying……
The
Invisible Teenage Girl (Kayman)
